India, Aug. 5 -- Real Housewives of Beverly Hills alum Teddi Mellencamp has broken her silence regarding her long-speculated affair with horse trainer Simon Schroeder. On the Jamie Kern Lima Show podcast, she spoke emotionally for the first time, admitting she caused pain and wondering if her stage 4 melanoma cancer is "payback" for her mistakes as per TMZ.

Mellencamp, 44, said she did hurt others during that period, though she refrained from confirming the affair outright, citing concern for her children's privacy.

"Did I do things that hurt people? Yes," she said. She shared how guilt and emotional turmoil have weighed on her heart.She then revealed something startling: she questioned if her cancer diagnosis might be a form of karmic ...