India, July 2 -- The morning of June 13 was one of the most dreaded for a pilot who had recently taken command of the A320 after seven years as co-pilot. As details of the Air India crash came in and theories on the causes did the rounds, not only did he get a sinking feeling when he thought of his forthcoming flight that afternoon, but his wife and ageing mother's incessant replaying of the videos and those 32 seconds before the airplane blew up in flames gave him the jitters. "A lethal combination of awe (that something like this was at all possible), trauma, shock and disbelief (ATSD)", is how he described the feeling. As he finished lunch in his Gurugram apartment and began to get ready to leave for the airport, his wife and mother surr...