United Kingdom, May 23 -- Nicole Kidman is still feeling "raw" following the death of her mother.

The 57-year-old Hollywood actress was left devastated when her mom Janelle, 84, passed away in September 2024 while her daughter was attending the Venice Film Festival in Italy and she dropped everything to fly home to be with her family - and now Nicole has admitted she's still struggling to deal with the loss.

She told Allure magazine: "Losing my mother changed every part of me . I'm so raw with it. I feel embarrassed because I feel like: 'Oh, you've talked about it enough.'

"I'm trying to be quiet and have it be a more intimate thing. The love was so profound that the loss of it . I'm on the journey of grief, the year of magical thinkin...