United Kingdom, May 2 -- Hilaria Baldwin "wanted to be dead" when people questioned her Spanish heritage.

The 41-year-old star - who has been married to Hollywood star Alec Baldwin, 67, since 2012 - was born in Boston, Massachusetts but spent a lot of her childhood in Spain and is fluent in the language so began to doubt her own intelligence when fans accused her of "faking" her seemingly natural ability so switch between US and Spanish dialects.

In an extract from her new book 'Manual Not Included' as obtained by PEOPLE, she said: "Now, I know that it's ridiculous that anyone would feel outraged or amused because someone forgot a word. Can you be honest right now, reading this: Have you ever forgotten a word? But back then, I started t...