United Kingdom, Sept. 12 -- Gwyneth Paltrow still battles "excruciating" pain over the death of her father more than two decades ago.

The Iron Man star was left devastated when her dad Bruce Paltrow passed away in October 2002 aged 58 following a battle with cancer, and Gwyneth has now revealed she has learned to process her grief differently over the years but she still feels a "dread" and a "heaviness" set in as she approaches the anniversary of the loss.

In her Goop newsletter, she wrote: "My father died six days after my 30th birthday on October 3, 2002.

"We were on a road trip together in Italy that began in Tuscany and was meant to end in Portofino but we never got there; he was airlifted to intensive care in Rome from Lucca on O...