United Kingdom, March 28 -- Eiza Gonzalez "wasn't able to cry for four years" after her dad passed away.

The 35-year-old actress' dad, Carlos Gonzalez, died in a motorcycle accident "exactly 10 days" after her 12th birthday, and Eiza has admitted that she descended into "complete and utter denial" about his passing.

The Hollywood star said on the 'Podcrushed' podcast: "My dad was a really good man. He cared about people so much. And I just couldn't connect, the unfairness of him dying.

"I just was like, '(Of) all the f****** s***** people in the world, him?"

The tragedy actually made Eiza question her own faith in God.

The actress explained: "It made me not believe in anything bigger ... I lost faith completely. And I had a real hard...