Kenya, July 12 -- Many believe that adultery is the reason why marriages fail. But believe me when I say that feeling inadequate in the eyes of one's own spouse may sometimes be the devastation of a woman. Slowly, I became aware of it. He would initially say, "Let's watch something first, to get in the mood," while we were in bed. Before it became a habit, I thought it was amusing. Next, a prerequisite.
No connection means no obscenity. Without it, he couldn't perform. And it wasn't even about me when he did. He would transform into a stranger, rough, quick, and mechanical, after seeing those ladies on film. Avoid making eye contact. No love. I thought of myself as only a body. He would then turn over and browse through his phone. No hug. No kiss. Don't speak. I began to blame myself. Perhaps I wasn't seductive enough. I might let myself go. I experimented with everything: new haircuts, lingerie, and perfumes. To read more click here.
Published by HT Digital Content Services with permission from Bana Kenya.