Srinagar, July 3 -- Behind mechanical and fake smiles, there is a world of ruthless hidden pain. The pain that is tortuous and numbs a person to an unimaginable level. An outside smiles doesn't mean everything is fine. However, there is smouldering lava, occasionally erupting but many a time, just burning without any flame, only heat and sighs. In the present world, the toxic traditional set-up of ours doesn't accept the omniscient display of pain. Pain is something which has to be hidden, in whatever way possible. What others think if I express my painful saga in words and cry at the top of my voice, is the most dreadful truth and phobia of the modern times. Relieving myself and trying to find solace far away from the deep abyss of pain ...